“What we really want to do is what we are really meant to do. When we do what we are meant to do, money comes to us, doors open for us, we feel useful, and the work we do feels like play to us.” ~Julia Cameron

It seems of late that God is asking me to define my relationship with my spirituality as it pertains to money. I had to come to grips with the fact I was also deserving of God's abundance while doing his/her works. It is a tight rope to walk in this world. Most of the world has a belief that spiritual people devote their lives to God and that means to live without means. This concept is a throwback to a much different place and time. India today has many spiritual leaders. Each of these leaders is clothed fed and housed by benefactors or by their followers. In biblical days, Jeshua was befriended by Matthew, a wealthy tax collector, Lazarus a wealthy landowner, and Joseph of Aramathea, a wealthy landowner who at the end of Jeshua's life paid for his body and placed it in his own tomb. Jeshua was clothed, housed and fed.

Our modern society does not function in the same way. Priests recieve salaries. Famous spiritual speakers recieve payments. Spiritual readers charge by the hour. I recently found myself once again looking at my debts. From month to month I was never sure if I could pay all the bills. Oh, sure the rent got paid but others sometimes had to wait. I realize as a creator of my own experience that it must be  a belief of my own that has caused my struggle with my finances. I began to search within for my blockages. I discovered two things in my search. The first was that I associated spirituality with poverty, and the second was that I didn't think I could control my finances. You see, I was raised in a poverty mentality. My family struggled for money and I was told repeatedly by an unknowing father that I was a "bum" and "worthless."  So my belief system was that I couldn't achieve financial success.

Recently I decided I needed to break free from the bonds of poverty and I put some things out on Facebook. First I decided that the two bedroom apartment I was living in was too small for me, my son, my fiancee, two cats, and an elderly aunt of my fiancee's that we were going to be taking in soon. So I asked for help. I asked in the form of a posting on Facebook. I suggested that if each of my Facebook friends would give me twenty dollars I could raise the downpayment for the house we needed. The response was quite interesting. A couple people were offended that I would even ask. Several people actually helped out and most ignored the posting.

So I asked myself again is it my belief system that led to the response. I concluded it must be, as I am the creator of my own experience as all the Avatars have said. So I also posted a reduced rate for my spiritual phone sessions. the first response was someone asking me why I even charge for them. I responded that I had dedicated my life to spiritual work and that I also needed to cover the material expenses that our society creates. I was supported by several people. I am most proud of my nephew who eloquently came to my rescue.

Then a posting came on my blogpost "John of New~John of Peniel," once again questioning my material gain from spiritual work. I fell to the words I fall to most, "God is Love." If God truly is Love then He/She would never want any of us to suffer poverty. God is the ultimate abundance and the Peniel experience is one of realizing that you are a part of God and He/She works in and through you without limitation. I AM abundant. I AM financially secure. I AM Loved by God and I AM confident that God will provide.

Our world dictates that we must have roofs over our heads, food on our table and clothes upon our backs. The only way to achieve those material items is to have an income. I am blessed in my life to witness miraculous healings, and though I do not take the credit for the healings I have given up alot of gainful work to facilitate healings. My choice of career is spiritual. My choice in the material world is now financial security. I am blessed to be the creator of that experience and am moving forward in great joyful anticipation and in full faith that God/Universe will provide in abundant ways, that I may indeed continue my spiritual mission undistracted.

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